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#73

2010-04-29T18:33:00.010+08:00

Short post before im out to study :D

SS- Being a very smart girl, i read the question wrongly and ended up not being able to complete the paper ._.

I know i'm smart for that :B

Hmtl- Got the want to sleep feel.

HAHAHHA.

Wrote crappppppps :B

That's all for you people. :D

I'm happy that D made the right choice :DDDDD

~~Maybe you're just feeling guilty.~~

~~Maybe it's just what we call - infatuation.~~

~~Maybe you just felt you needed me.~~

~~Maybe you understood your heart wrongly.~~

~~Maybe you're just trying to thank me, for caring.~~

~~Maybe you got a screw loose and dont know what's best.~~

~~That night, i was extremely happy.~~

~~But the more i think,~~

~~The more it seems like a lie to me.~~

~~I dont know what's wrong with me.~~

~~But maybe, the past made me like that.~~

~~I'm so afraid that history repeats itself.~~

~~I know the feeling is there.~~

~~But i also know that i may fall harder than before.~~

~~I believe , you wouldnt make me cry again, right?~~

Maybe i should learn to trust :D

Edit/

Im back :D

Studying wasnt exactly productive.

Was like super tired please ):

Studied for a while then home-d :D

Im like so super tired.

Actually im not supposed to be here.

But my superb dad asked me to check somthing when im like so freaking effing tired.

So i kindof got addicted ):

My eyes are tearing like madmadmad ):

Update tmr. :/

#72

2010-04-28T23:45:00.002+08:00

Was out studying for tmr's ss paper.
'cause apparently, someone told me that if i stayed at home, i will sleep ._.
True, butbut, damn mean.
Hmpf.
Studying was as productive as how i expected it to be.
Productivity: 1 star.
Entertaining: 3 star.
HAHAHHA :B

Somehow, it's been runnning through my mind over and over again.
It seems to good to be true.
And, i'm really afraid.

#71

2010-04-26T20:53:00.002+08:00

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Is is true that tomorrow will be better.
Or was it just a lie to keep people going?

Today, many things happened.
1. I'm proud of myself for showing an act of intergrity by passing over to Mr ong a phone i found in the girls toilet.

2. Studied for like 2 hours plus with huiting.
There's totally rare you see.

3. I got scolded by Mrs ong for talking :B
Not scolded, she just told me not to. Hahahhas.

4. Mrs ong said that since i put on braces, i've been asking weird questions :B
True uh, feeling dumb nowadays.

5. Mrs ong said that each time she turned to look at us, Jk would either be turning to the back/left.
And i'm so guilty.
'cause i just so happen to be on his left ._.

6. Six hours marathon plan with Jk on next monday :D
*Anticipates*

7. The stupid pimple left an ugly scar on my face.
Apparently, it explains why i've been feeling down.

8. I cant find my rubberband and hasnt been putting it for quite awhile. ):

9. Think daddy's not bringing me to guangzhou.
There goes my chance of staying in a flat with a golf course right below ):

10. I'm still vexed over one thing ):

That's about it.
Studying, sooon :D

Somehow, i missed you a lot today.
But, no, i cant keep feeling like that.

#70

2010-04-25T21:30:00.002+08:00

After some blog hopping,
I realised that everyone's busy mugging ):
I dont like it. Hmpf.
I havent touched on anything i should >:(
Finefine, i'll mug like you guys starting from tmr.
I seriously hope that i mean what i'm saying.
If not, i'll just.
SIMPLY.FLUNK.MY.EXAMS.
Thou i'm still feeling lucky that this is not o levels :B
Hardcore mugging up ahead :D
Feels like such a loser not being able to keep to what i planed for myself.
Grr.
Oh, homeworks all undone.
Join me, someone :D

Someone looked my brother up and asked him to be model :O
I warned him not to get cheated :D
Such a good sister i am :B
Heh.

Talked many things with D.
Dug out some of the things that have been on his mind all this while.
Maybe what you said is right.
But well, dont give in.
You've got to stay strong.
I like the plan that you're going to play on him :D
I'll support you - definitely :D

I just killed two ants by accident today :(
Guilty much.
:/
The stupid karma thing that has been a 'hot topic' in class is haunting me.
I dont like it :(

You made me learn.
I'm getting on better, i guess.

#69

2010-04-24T17:47:00.003+08:00

Tuition was alright today.

Wanted to meet CC for study date.

But someone, i ended up sleeping and it was raining.

Was still sleeping soundly till i got DISTURBED BY A CALL FROM HYG >:(

Besides that,
I've been scratching my pimple accidently many times a day ):

Pissed. Angry. Sad.

Today aint productive.

Shall do some mugging tonight :D

(I'll try)

Forgoodness sake, stop thinking you're oh-so-wonderful/perfect.

the world doesnt revolve around you.

There's lots of opportunities everywhere.

Dont think we'll die without you.

'cause i can tell you we definitely wont.

Stop saying people like as if you've never made a mistake before.

Maybe you're the one that needs to do some self reflection, fucker.

You think you're great,

I tell you, not at all.

You're a loser who doesnt even know what is the right thing to do.

And please, dont crap by inking some unrelated stuffs.

We dont give a damn, get it.

You can jolly well fuck off and find someone you deem fit for it.

And you'll know, you've lost the really good ones.

If this is how you're going to handle stuffs.

You can jolly well prepare and wait to fall.

'cause i'm effing sure you will.

Trust me on this, i cant be wrong.

'Cause you jolly well cant even teach your child well.

You cant.

At least me and alvin is definitely better than your _____.

You've always been seeing things from your point of view.

One day, when you find out the other, i tell you, too late.

There and then, i'll be sitting right here, laughing at your own STUPIDNESS.

Yes, i said that.

You think they'll thank you?

Hahahha, dont be naive , stupid ass.

One day, they'll just pick a fight with you.

And i cant wait to see who has the last laugh.

Thou deep inside, i know you've already lost the battle.

I know i'll get on well one day,

Even if it means i'm all on my own.

D, dont put it on mind.

'cause it's not at all worth.

Things will get better.

#68

2010-04-23T22:22:00.002+08:00

I'M AWESOME , FOR BEING THIS HAPPY AFTER FAILING MY TEST.
This aint the first anyway.
Hahahha
But i'm so going to study for prelims okk :D
Mye - we'll see.
Walau, i got like 'cheated' by Alvin yap.
My 2.4 timing is actuallt 15.
But it's ok to me cause i merely wanted to pass :D
Had fun imitating his(pcy) actions with devin and co :D
Laughed loads.
I think i'm getting better at imitations :D
Maths class was time for laughters as usual.
Realised that jk and i keep playing and talking and it seems that someone is jealous oh ;x
But dont care. :x
Tons of homework this weekend.
And i cant find the most important one that i need tmr - tuition homework ):
Urgh.
Besides that, still got many things bothering this lil brain of mine ):
Grr.

#67

2010-04-22T20:48:00.002+08:00

Urghhh.
I'm in a freaking bad mood.
Putting what that fucker did, aside, there's still many shit.
Sorry, if i showed you attitude.
Seriously sorry.
Spent 3hrs at Mrs Lai's place today.
Longgggg tuition.
Plus, we got to try three of her desserts :D
Chen test tmr.
I tell you, i dont know a shit ):
And i mean it.
But well, my motive here is to tell people that there's show tmr.
'cause i'm freaking going to scold PHUA CHENG YOU.
Ok, you may say it's childish and all to scold him over such a small thing.
But hey, how would you have felt.
If you spent a long while thinking of what to give a friend on her birthday.
And some bitch ass just freaking say out everything.
Omg, i shall chill.
Urghhhh.

I've got the feeling that you've been lying to me all this while.
Time to tell the truth.

#66

2010-04-21T21:24:00.003+08:00

Nothing's going right, and i dont like it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MELISSA MOK :D
I know i'm not the first.
But it's alright.
'cause you know, it's the thought that counts :DD
Time flies yeah.
It's been 3 years plus.
I never knew i'd meet a friend like you,
Who never fails to be there when i cried.
(True enough, you've always been the one by my side when i cried in school)
And for that, i really thank you a lot.
'cause if it havent been for you,
I may not have understood so much.
You seem to understand everything,
Even without me having to say a word.
And i'm touched for that. (:
Four years in the same class.
Not everyone gets to enjoy being in the same class with their friends for this long.
And i'm lucky yeah?
I know we did many stupid things together.
But those were truly fun times :D
Thinking back, i wouldnt mind if someone were to invent a time machine and take us back to the past.
(Sounds like some love letter contents:B)
But it's alright.
'cause i love you.
Heh (:
We may be single.
But i'm sure, we're as strong as anyone else.
And let's not get affected by anything kay :D
Nomatter what happens, i'll be there :D
Lastly, we gotta work hard for our o's (:

#65

2010-04-20T20:52:00.003+08:00

A maths test was screwed.
I seem to b screwing more and more things.
So much so that i'm getting pissed with myself.
For all carelessmistakes and stupidmistakes.
I swear for every such mistake i make in o levels, i'll starve for 1 meal >:/
Hmpffff, angry with myself.

Things are getting better.
But i can still feel something's wrong.
Just that i dont dare to ask.
):
Why isit that, nothing seems to be going right.
Why is it so.
Tell me what i must do, to make things better.

Maybe there's no time for regrets in life.
And there's no point in doing so.
Not at all.
Angeline, it's time to stop being naive and learn how to move ahead.
You're not supposed to turn back.
Not at all.
In life, there's no such thing called 'miracles'.
And let me tell you, what's gone is gone.
And things can never be like before.
No matter how hard you try,
It wont be the same again.
No point getting sad.
You know you deserve it.
And it's alright.
'cause maybe there's nothing wrong with life like that.
Even if there is,
You're not supposed to do anything.
Just let it be.
'cause you're sick of life like that.
Nothing's perfect in life.
And not all things go your way.
No point hoping for what,
You know will never happen.
Keep yourself numb.
And you'll soon forget all.

#64

2010-04-19T23:38:00.002+08:00

Something was amissed right from the start of the day.
Just that i failed to realised.
And i didnt know what was going on.
It was so sudden
That i didnt have time to react.
And the only thing i could do, was to cry with him.
I've never seen him that way.
Maybe once, 6 years back.
But if even i didnt have the power to make him like that.
Who's the fucking idiot that made him like that.
I swear i wont forgive him.
And i may not know the story.
But one day, i'll put all the bits and pieces together, and i'll tell you, i know why.
And it hurt a lot to see him like that.
And i never knew he was putting up this strong front before me.
And i feeling so guilty, for failing to realise.
You cried harder than the way i ever cried.
And i know, things aint as simple as what i thought.
But you dont know how much it hurts to realise,
You've been pretending you're alright,
Just to keep me going, just so i wont worry.
And im sorry, for never knowing.
And taking everything for granted.
I'm feeling terrible.
Really terrible.
And this crying wouldnt stop.
I'm not prepared for tomorrow.
Not in anyway.
And this crying to stop, before i get puffy eyes tmr.
~~I believe tomorrow will be better.~~
Maybe i'm just naive to think that way.
I'll stay strong, so must you.

#63

2010-04-18T20:34:00.002+08:00

I've not studied for ss.
And i dont wanna F9 it again ):
I shall stdy from 9.30 pm onward till i finish what i need to do.
I dont know if there's any homework.
I only know i didnt do a shit.
I'm struggling hard with my studies.
And play seems like my priority.
Ok, whatever, i dont feel like blogging further.

I hope you can stop being sad and cheer up.
It feels like , i've never really seen you happy.
And i really want you to be happy very badly.
Yes, very badly.
Many people worry when you're sad , you know?
You've got so much more than many others.
You should be contented.
We all need you and dont want you to be like that.
It's just that you thought we didnt.
But you should cheer up.
Cause when you're sad, people around you will also be.
I dont know how to cheer you up.
Sorry.
I only know, i want to see you happy.
I wont cry over your words anymore.
'cause maybe there's no point in doing so anymore.
Sorry for pissing you off all the time.
Really sorry.

#62

2010-04-17T21:37:00.002+08:00

Busy day !
Was late for tuition cause i missed all my buses and waited 15 minutes for the next one ):
Dad fetched me to dental thereafter.
Alvin followed :D
Went to Thomson plaza so i could get my stuffs from popular.
Then bought KFC home for dinner.
And her i am feeling guilty cause i havent touch my books for the whole of today ):
And my teeth is hurting from the rubberband-ing ):
So i'm trying to spend all my time sleeping to not feel it.
And i think i'm making no sense.
Whatever.
Bye, i'm out of this space.

Missing who i thought you were.
The one whom i didnt expect to hurt me this deep.
But, it's ok.

#61

2010-04-16T18:53:00.003+08:00

I'm here to tell the world that,
Till now, my results are greattttt ! :D
Thou it's only a few papers, but i aced it all except english.
I suck at english.
We all know that. ):
English speech writing : 18/30. (B4)
E maths : 22/25 (A1)
Physics : 22.5/25 (A1)
Mother tongue : 82/100 (a1)
The spoiler subject, as always , is geog.
I dont study for it, and i'm always getting D7, E8, F9 ):
Partly cause it's ismail teaching.
Someone who is so not interesting,
So argumentative,
With high ego,
Thinking she's always right,
And will never give in, DESPITE THE FACT THAT THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWS SHE'S IN THE WRONG.
Loser-ish act, aint it?
And i think the awesome thing is that,
recently, me and jaekyung keep getting same marks for commom tests :D
Maths - same
Physics - Difference by half a mark.
And i like it.
'Cause his results is always good.
And i like it when we study maths together.
Cause apparently, he teaches me the questions i dont know,
And i teach him those that he dont know.
Cool, right?
I still remember us studying together for the physics test during Mrs ong's maths lesson :B
I hope mrs ong dont read this :xx
We only did it once, and it's just 15 minutes.
Plus, we finished our work before doing so :D
I think the QA we had before our test really helped and that was how we did it :D
We gotta all do well for o levels,4/3! <3

Joke of the day : shuhui thought that food can produce music :B

Something;s wrong today.
But i dont know what's wrong.
I cant fall asleep.
'Cause there's something bugging me.
But i dont know what, aint i cant get it out of my head.
I.NEED.HELP.

#60

2010-04-15T19:29:00.001+08:00

Omg, this stupid thing happened!

SudieArguincuran@hotmail.com says:
hello
angeline says:
hello
SudieArguincuran@hotmail.com says:
hey cutie pie
angeline says:
HUH.
SudieArguincuran@hotmail.com says:
i'm 22/f your a male right?
angeline says:
Yeah.
SudieArguincuran@hotmail.com says:
nice, I just got off work and finally got some time to relax which site did i msg you from again?
angeline says:
What do you mean?
SudieArguincuran@hotmail.com says:
I am a little busy right now, i have some new pics that i'd like u to see, but i'd rather you see me on cam!!!
angeline says:
It's alright
SudieArguincuran@hotmail.com says:
do you cam? Well i don't do yahoo cam or any other cam because i have been recorded before... But i do know one site you can watch me on cam, that assures me no one records...
angeline says:
I dont cam
I think it's alright
SudieArguincuran@hotmail.com says:
I mean... Do you want to see me on my cam? IT'S A NEW SITE THAT IM ON, ITS AWESOME!!!
angeline says:
Yes, IM TRYING TO SAY IM NOT INTERESTED.
SudieArguincuran@hotmail.com says:
Ok go to http://www.freecamlink.net/a5yqc and click click accept on the left side
angeline says:
YOU FUCK OFF.

This is cool eh?
Red : sick ass.

#59

2010-04-15T18:52:00.002+08:00

2.4 NAPFA GIVES ME MORE STRESS THAN A COMMON TEST.
It's true ok, dont laugh :x
But my timing was alright for my standard. :D
I seriously lost count of the round :/
And the best thing was that i walked for 1.5 rounds ^^
Yay. ;D
Best 2.4 (:
But after that i got a really bad headache. ):
And it's still hurting now,
despite the fact that i ate panadols.
ANYWAY, THANKS ZP FOR THE PANADOL!!
Really needed it a lot lur.
This weather have been giving me a lotlotlot of headache ):
I dont like it.
Somehow i think i'll be down with high fever tonight.
Cause i stood under the rain for 5 minutes after NAPFA.
OH, THANKS PUIPUI'S DADDY FOR FETCHING ME HOME :DD
I'll make this post short cause i'm kind of hungry :x
Take care all, people.

What you said last night got me thinking.
And today, i tried to face reality.
And i know, i have to go.
That place dont belong to me.
I would miss it, but i would choose to leave.

#58

2010-04-14T20:51:00.003+08:00

#3 When she says it’s over, she still wants you to be hers.
(Brenda)

Colour contacts or?
I seriously want it.
But on and off, there's so many people telling me the bad points.
And i'm kind of afraid.
Should i or should i not?

Eitherway, we pissed mrs ong off today :B
Cause we keep asking her stupid questions :x
HAHAHHA.

After maths remedial, went out with huiting, shuhui and dinosaur sis(huiting, make sure your sis reads this :D)
Went to cut fringe.
And yes, now it's kuku :x
Then we met mrs ong and miss lee.
Waited for them at the elevator,
She keep giving us her look. :B
I dont know how to explain.
But yes, her look :x
Then went to buy her birthday present :D
I think it's an awesome gift :x
And yeah, home-d.

A, you dont have to do so much for me.
At the end of the day, you wont get anything you know.
Yes, you're rich.
But so what?
I've never wanted to marry a rich guy.
Never.
And, you know, at the end of the day,
you aint getting anything from me.
Seriously, i mean it, nothing.
I dont need the most expensive gift.
I dont, not anything from you.
If i needed you, it'd have been long ago.
You dont know me, do you.
I'll tell you, imma BITCH.
Yes, a fcuking bitch.
You dont need someone like me.
Cause you deserve someone better.
I've got someone else on mind.
And even if, i dont like anyone right now,
It wouldnt be you.
And infact, never.
Take it as i'm pleasing you.
Stop contacting me.
Cause it's irritating.
Thanks for everything,
It's much appreciated.
But well, i'm starting to be afraid of you.
I've been avoiding you.
And i hope you get it.
LEAVE ME ALONE.

#57

2010-04-13T22:19:00.002+08:00

I swear i'm so super duper unhappy right now.
I have moodswings, so what.

First, biology test is just someting that's so effing irritating.
And it turns me off (sounds sick)
But whatever.
I didnt study meiosis.
And all i ever knew was that:
(a) homozygous dominant x homozygous recessive : all dominant traits.
(b) hetrozygous x hetrozygous : 3 dominant : 1 recessive.
(c) Homozygous x hetrozygous : 50% each.
But ohwell, i never really did well for bio.
But yes, i dont exactly consider using it as one of my r4.

Secondly, someone pissed me off.
Ok, that's the wrong way to phrase it.
I'm pissed after finding out that person effing lied so much.
To think i trusted you kay.
I dont know if i was stupid or what.
But well, now i know how much you've been hiding.
A'lil too much uh.
And i aint forgiving you for those lies.
Maybe i would.
But not now.

Thirdly, i'm vexed over some stuffs.

But well, aint gonna think so much.
What's done is done and i declare it over.
Aint going to get affected by those little insignificant things anymore.
They're just so not worthy.
Just gotta blame myself for being so stupid.
But, i wont anymore.

#56

2010-04-12T22:49:00.002+08:00

I declare that i'm 100% failing my geog test. :D
But dont worry guys, im not sad.
Cause i didnt study! :DD
The paper was 15 marks and i really had nothing to do so i just chose the 7 marks question to do.
And i wrote absolute nonsense (:
Say i'm coooooool! :B
Physics tmr.
Can't really afford to fail thou.
Traumatised by eoy`09's results :x
But i havent started preparing for MYE, Have you?
Tell me you havent ! :B
I just finish rushing out my discursive writing.
And im proud of myself cause i completed it in less than 20 minutes!
It may not be a good writing but i did try :D
Goodnight.
Dark circles got me paranoid.

#55

2010-04-10T23:39:00.003+08:00

STEAMBOAT DINNER WITH PEEPO I ♥♥♥
It was awesome i guess.
For the fact that we havent been like that together for awhile.
I was still hapily sleeping till Cheecheng called.
Then Darren said he wanted to wear a vest and it looks weird.
And he kindly asked me to dress weirdly.
As a good good friend, i agreed :/
And so, i really dressed weirdly:x
And the worst thing was that,
I met people i knew :x
Had phototaking sesson thereafter.:D
But, photos aint that great :(
Oh well.
We shall meet up again sooon!

Guess what, i actually mixed up my dental appt.
It's next week, not today :/
Urgh.

I dont get why people leave numbers on facebook asking you to text them.
Neither do i get why perverts like to add people on MSN, telling them about some sick stuffs.
Dont they have better things to do?
Get a life man.

I must MUG.
I must become a MUGGER.
Thou i know it's pretty impossible.
'cause that's not me.
And i'm not Gary.
Hahahhas.
(Gary, come read this part :B)

Lots of tests up next week.
Monday - Geography.
(I dont know what chapter)
Tuesday - physics, biology.
Others, i forgot :x

Somehow, i'm still hoping like one day you'd tell me you still need me.
And i dont know why the hell im feeling like that.

#54

2010-04-09T21:21:00.002+08:00

I know you love me, and i dont hate you.
But hey, i aint some puppet or what for you to control my life and all.
I have my own life, my own attitude.
And i want my things to go my way.
I wont listen to others just because they think what im doing is wrong and i've got to folow their way.
I have a choice.
And my choice is to remain the way i am.
I know my attitude sucks.
I know it well.
And i know i've changed.
Im no longer the girl who does everything you want me to.
And im sorry for that.
Sorry for the tone i used on you.
And sorry for evrything i've done to hurt you.
But well, that's me.
And if you push me so hard,
I'll just leave and live on my own.
It's fine with me, seriously.
You dont know how much i wish to stay with JA and dont come back.
You dont know what's going on in my life.
And you're so not going to know what makes me sad.
But all you have to know is,
Im sorry for the attitude.
And im even more sorry that i cant change.
I love you thou.

I'm still missing you a lot.
But im not going to do anything about it.

#53

2010-04-06T19:56:00.002+08:00

I finished my 140 word touching story today.
That's all i did during AP.
Ohwell.
Asked qianyi to help me see if it's touching enough.
She and wenting both said that it's sad.
I'll share my story here.
Ok, before that, i'm not good at narratives.
That's why i'm always going for expository.
But please, keep your comments to yourself.
I dont need them.
Unless you truly mean me good.
You should get it that it's hell hard to write a touching story with 140 words!
If you can do it, let me know.
I admire you.
But if you aint capable of that, the dont pass comments.
Cause i can say it out loud,
THAT I AINT CAPAPBLE OF DOING SO.

Here goes the story.(Direct translate :B)
"Dad, where's mom" , Xiaoli asked softly. (Cause she didnt have the energy).
She didnt get any reply from her dad.
One week ago, xiaoli met with a car accident and it hit affected one of her eye.
It pains her mom to see her like that and the mom requested for her eye to be donated to xiaoli.
However, her mom never got to come out of the operating theatre alive.
Thereafter, the nurse told xiaoli and her dad that before her mom passed away,
She told her to tell them not to be sad over her death as she'd be loving them wherever she is.
She's sorry for not being able to do her part as a wife and a mom.
Although she's no longer here, her eye will always represent her as a part of you and she'll enjoy the world together with you, with that eye in you.

(The setting of my story is in Korea. So dont tell me it's illogical.)

Today's maths test wasnt exactly easy.
Thou they all told me it was.
Ok, maybe i'm dumb.
._.
I'm nolonger seating with Derek ):

#52

2010-04-04T16:05:00.002+08:00

Yay, i'm feeling better.
For today at least (:
Maybe it's cause of the rain.
My mood's much better with the rain around.
Somehow or somewhat like that luh.
Can't be bothered to explain.
Maybe cause i like the sound the rain makes when it touches the ground.
Or maybe cause it seems to bring all away along with it.
Doesnt matter. :DD
I've not done anything for the past three days.
And tancheecheng bluffed me about studying together.
When i brought books to her house,
she asked me to go see some volunteer sign up thing ._.
See la, cheecheng, if i fail, your bad!! :B
Speech writing test tmr.
I should work hard.
Cant afford to fail my english.

P.S I totally detests people who act.
Let me tell you, i look down on you.

#51

2010-04-03T22:11:00.002+08:00

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AND I FUCKING DONT GET IT.
4 words say it all.
That's all that has been running through my mind.
You got to fuck off.
P.S I dont like facebook messages.
Including pests.

#50

2010-04-02T21:29:00.002+08:00

Quarrelled like mad with mom today.
Decided to stop talking so i went to bed right after we quarrelled.
And, i slept for 3 sweet hours :D
The only thing i did today,
Was the tuition homework for tomorrow :/
I feel so slack.
Keep telling myself,
Angeline needs to study.
But eventually,
I just keep sleeping, playing and all :/
Urgh, i don't like the way i procrastinate.
When i kNow that there's something impt for me ><
But well.
I ain't gonna care for now (:
Dad's so busy with work that he wont be able to fetch me tmr ):
And guess what, i dont know how to go home from there ._.

Stay strong, cousin (:

#49

2010-04-02T09:38:00.005+08:00

“Fear is stronger than love. Trust nobody.”

Tricked Shuhui today?
The other plan failed cause the sticky pad wasnt sticky enough to stick on our uniform.
Class drama was alright.
But the endings were kinda abrupt.
But, guess the audience response was great.
But, why should i care, since it's not my class :B
ButBut, i suck at differentiation of trigo functions.
I dont know a shit.
I only know,
cos x = -sin x
sin x = cos x
tan x = sec(square) x
I screwed my English oral ):
Mine was like damn short :/
Rushed home and went for mrs lai's tuition.
Joked a lot (:
Kinda coooooool :B
Shuhui and i found a new toy :BB
Heh :x

I've been trying hard, dont you get it?
That i'm tired of running and chasing.
But after a hardcore crying last night.
I thought it through.
I aint going to remain like that.
Cause i dont see the point anymore.
Infact, i dont know what exactly do i still want.
When i see you,
I just feel like crying.
That's all.
I dont know why either.
But perhaps cause you've let me down too many times.
And this aint brin me anywhere.
I've got to let go.
Cause we all know,
There's no point holding on to something that's never meant to be yours.
Cause i wont ever be.
I dont know what's on your mind.
Maybe someone else.
But i'm going to let myself be jealous no more.
Infact, i wish i couldnt feel.

#48

2010-03-31T19:47:00.003+08:00

I'm not feeling good, are you?
I need a quite and carefree life,
not a messed up one like this.
I didnt ask for it to be like that.
Somehow, it happened to be like that.
Things are bugging me real bad.
And it keeps me awake all night long.
I cant forget everything.
When it all happened so suddenly.
And i didnt know what to do.
And i was lost for words.

Did you know how it feels like,
When you're just 7, barely knowing anything.
Just having simple and naive thoughts.
And that short little you,
Standing by the window crying,
Look out of the window and praying hard that everything's going to be alright.
Wishing that there was this super natural power,
That will make everything ok.
And that you could stop crying.

Did you know how it feels like,
To have your heart sink right to the bottom,
When your nearly lost someone this close.
When the doctors told you,
They were trying their best.

Did you know how it feels like,
To wait anxiously outside,
When everything around you suddenly became so quiet,
And you could hear the "Tick tock" sound your watch makes,
And waiting for the time to pass by,
And every minute felt like a hundred years,
And you had to wait for 7hours.

Did you know how it feels like,
to know that your heart aint that strong,
And you nolonger feel it inside,
Cause you're already numb to everything.

Did you know how it feels like,
Just when you thought all's going to be over,
It repeats itself all over again.
And the worst thing was,
you went throught it thrice.

Did you know how it feels like,
When everyone is celebrating new year,
And you're hoping this aint the last.
And that everyone would still be here,
together,
for this next year.

Did you know how it feels like,
When you feel so much fear inside,
When you can't be sure that tomorrow will be the same.
And that anytime soon,
It's not going to be complete anymore.

Did you know how it feels like,
When the one you love so much,
Left without a word.
And you've got so much to tell her.
But never got the chance again.
And the main thing was,
You didnt get to see her breathe her last.

Everything is driving me mad.
I'm still smiling, not cause i'm happy.
But because, i dont want to explain.
And i dont want to tell everyone how i felt deepdeep inside.
And yes, i'm feeling real bad,
And i dont like it.
You people, just dont know how lucky you are.
And i wished i was equally lucky.

I needed you,
Right here by my side.

#47

2010-03-28T19:08:00.004+08:00

Insomnia's getting me crazy.
I tried to sleep at 11.
But i watched the minute hand shifting abit by abit.
And it got me crazy when i realised the hour hand was at two,
And i'm fcuking awake.
When i had to wake up at 6 sharp.
Things are driving me fcuking crazy.
I spend hours night long to think through so much.
And the bet damned thing that happened to me was that i couldnt even control my brain.
Cause it wouldnt listen when i said, STOP THINKING AND GET TO BED.
And it's oh-so-fcuking-fooking-freaking irritating.
Cause i end up sleeping so little that i start to get sleepy in class.
I.SERIOUSLY.NEED.SLEEPING.PILLS.
It used to be so easy to fall asleep.
But now, it takes me forever.

Tests up next week.
And im not prepared :/
I shall try and study tmr (:
Homeworks undone. :
I will try and get it done in the morning tmr :B

And i dont know how to say 'goodbye'.
When things come and go so sudden.
And you dont even realise that your dream has ended.
And you never knew it was a nightmare.
Till you find out many days later.
And you realise,
It's.too.late.
I used to look forward to tomorrows.
Cause i believed it'd be better.
Muchmuch better, i thought.
But now, i wish it never comes.
Cause i dont even know how to get through tonight.
You know how it feels?
I'm sure you dont :x

~~Many things to say. But not tonight.~~

#46

2010-03-27T21:36:00.002+08:00

Short post cause i need to sleep.
Paying respects tmr.
I'm kinda running short of time ):
And, know what?
I havent seen my brother for two days.
Yes, we live under the same roof.
But well, just didnt get to see him for two days ):
I need a BIGBIG hug from him thou :x
Cause of everything that happened.
Ok, tests up next week.
Dont ask me if i've studied.
Cause i can tell you straight in the face,
HELL.NO.
Short enough.
Bye.

I dont know what i want anymore.

#45

2010-03-26T22:11:00.002+08:00

Many many things happened today.
I was trying to spray water at jaekyung but ended up getting sprayed.
Then we decided to play outside class so as not to get the class wet.
Then, while he was running and i was chasing, Mrs Ong appeared. (Maths lesson time)
We were like oops.
He ran in to the guys toilet, i went back to class.
Then Mrs ong came in and kinda reprimanded us for doing stupid things :BB
Then she said many funny things too (Inside joke) :D
Kids nowadays are getting smarter eh.
Vectors are giving me loads of question marks.
I tell you,
I dont like it cause i dont know how to do it.
Sounds like a loser.
But too bad, my life, my rights (:
Out with huiting and co afterschool.
:D

You dont have to be sorry.
Cause i never needed an apology all along.
I never regretted and all.
And yeah, i never knew what was going on thou, Never.
Just feeling kinda lost.
Doesnt matter.
Dont get why it bothers me so much.
Much less why do i still care so much.

#44

2010-03-25T20:42:00.003+08:00

Today kinda sucked.
Nvm.
I WENT FOR GEOG REMEDIAL TODAY YOU KNOW!!
I'M NICE TO ISMAIL RIGHT!!
:x
Although i ran off without completing her work. :/
The phone call she had with my mommy was like got damn funny. :B
Heeheehaaaaaa.
You know what, she saw me and she kinda screamed saying,
"Angeline got come for remedial lei, we must go celebrate already"
Make me damn embarrassed lur ):
But, forget it.
Her remedial kinda save me today (:
So i shall be grateful and appreciative ^^

Got back result slip and calculated avg.
It's like 58% you know !
I've never got this low >:/
And the school looks down on me.
The expected L1R5 is like 12 >< Hate you, school :x

I kinda gave up trying.
Cause you didnt even bother to understand.
You didnt know i tried this hard, do you?

I just simply can't bring myself to tell you.
Please stay, i want you in MY life.
It aint a matter of pride.
But just yet another fear.

#43

2010-03-24T22:08:00.003+08:00

Results slip tmr.
~~Excited.~~ NOT.
Today was more or less alright.
I think i'm kind of lucky recently.
Skipped remedial on monday but veda didnt like mention my name.
So got away scott free :B
Skipped P.E today.
Mr wong missed out me name either :D
Didnt have to listen to his nags ((:
I've not done my homework due to procrastination :x
I will rush it out in school tmr.
Heh.
I keep thinking about who will entertain me when derek is overseas ):
No one to crap with.
No one to talk to.
No one to share textbooks with.
No one to cheer me up when i'm sad.
I will be sad.
6 schooldays you know ):

Wont post much today :D

I promise to stop messing your life.

#42

2010-03-23T18:09:00.003+08:00

I'm not gonna use the computer after i finish this post.
Cause im suffering from insomnia all night long.
Slept at one one sunday night.
Two on monday night.
And to make it worse,
i've got school in the morning tmr.
And that's somehow why i find it so hard to get myself our of bed :/
So yes, i gonna tuck myself in at ten tonight!
(I hope i will).
Forgot what i wanted to post about.
Doesnt matter.
I'm just hoping mdm yau would get well soon.

Youknow,iwishedthateverysinglepostofyourswasactuallymeantforme.
Iwishedthatyouwouldtaketheinitiativetotalktomeonline.
Thereasonwhyi'mgoingonlinethisoftenissimple.
Causeiwannatalktoyou.
Butyeah,i'mstartingtofeelcoldinside.
Andi'mafraidthati'llmoveonsoon.
Letmeknowwhatyou'rethinking,please.
Causeiwannabepartofyourlife.
Iwannabethereeachtimeyou'redown.
Tellme,you'venotfallenforsomeoneelse.
Ireallywish,you'restillrighthere.
Iknowi'mselfish.
Butthat'slove,ain'tit?

I.promise.that.this.time.round.i'll.change.and.cherish.

#43

2010-03-22T20:42:00.002+08:00

Why did you bear to break me.

If only we knew, what's on in life for us.
If only, everything was stated clearly.
It may not be as exciting.
But we wouldnt have to go through so much.
Maybe it's through all this that we learn and grow strong.
But hey, How long more can our heart take.
How many times can your heart break.
How much tears do you have to shed.
How much love could you really give.
And would you know who's worthy and who's not.
That was,
If only we knew.

Apparently, after everything that happened.
You would say, you wished you knew.
But we know, we can never know.

I keep thinking,
If love was meant to hurt,
Why did so many people still fall into it so deeply.
If we knew nothing lasts forever and "Iloveyouforever" never existed,
Why did we still choose to believe.
If we knew that love wasnt as simple,
Why did we take it so simply.
But if love was complicated,
How so.
If we knew the consequences right from the start,
Why did we still go ahead and do it.
If that the nature of humans,
Why were we created like that.
Dont tell me,
we're here just to know how it feels to hurt.
Tell me, that's not true.

When you knew you were going to leave the next morning,
Why did you tell me you'd be there.
When you could let go easily,
Why tell me that you couldnt live without me.
And why did i believe every word that you said.

Tell me, i'm the one on your mind all day long.
Tell me, you love me once more.
Tell me, all you ever need is me.
Tell me, you want me back.
Tell me, i'm the only one that makes you happy.
Tell me, you're yourself beside me.
Tell me, you're comfortable by my side.
Tell me, we belong together.
Tell me, you wont go again.

#42

2010-03-21T21:50:00.003+08:00

I read this and think it's touching.
A girl and guy was riding down the road.
Girl:(They were speeding over 100km/h) Slow down, I'm scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No, it's not. Please slow down, it's scary.
Guy: Do you love me?
Girl: Yes, of course.
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: I love you.. slow down.
Guy:Now, give me a BIG hug.
(Girl hugs him.)
Guy: Can youtake my helmet off and you put it on? It's bugging me.
.
.
.
In the papers on the next day.
There's this article saying a motorcycle had crashed into a building cause of break failure.
Two were on it but only one survived.
Here's the truth:
Halfway down the road, the guy realised that his breaks had broke but he didnt want to scare that girl.
So he.. had her say she love him and felt her hug for one last time, then had her wear his helmet so she'd live even thou it meant he would die.

Eitherway, just finished watching the charity show.
It's sad eh.
The poor undergrad who met with car accident overseas.
I feel like being some volunteer there.
I'll see how after o's.

#41

2010-03-21T21:06:00.003+08:00

Deleted 3 posts and i'm back to public blogging (:
Dinner at east coast was awesome.
Partly cause the weather was great.
but way back home sucked.
Cause the journey was long.
Thus, was listening to music, looking out of the windows, thinking through all.
Feeling really down right now.
And i need huiting loads.
She's like my life ♥
Ok, abit exagerrating but whatever.
But the main thing is, i dont even know how to start.
Just so much inside.
But, dont really wanna share too.
Seen some things and kinda hurt.
But aint going to say.
I.should.stop.crying.and.prepare.for.school.tmr.
Yes, that's what i should do.
So i shant post further.

Your words hurt you know?
For your info, a lot.
I love you,
~~I want you,~~
~~I need you.~~
I cant have you.
You dont belong with me.
Cause we're worlds apart.
And i wished, we both lived on mars.
Such that no one could separate us.

#34

2010-03-17T12:45:00.004+08:00

I realised many things today.
1. I forgot all about my sec three work.
2. My room's in some horrendous mess that i get so pissed off when i need to find something.
3. I need some king size bed so that my bolster will not drop onto the floor during midnight.
4. I need a bigger wardrobe cause i seriously dont have enough space.
5. I love big boxes where i cant dump everything inside, without caring cause once it's covered, i'll just dump it somewhere.
6. I should stop wasting my money on those useless stuffs cause they're just wasting my limited space.
An the best damned thing is that im having a veryvery bad gastric pain now.
Yes, now, while im typing out this whole post, with thhe pain still there.
And yes, im in a super duper foul mood now ><
So i shall stop. :/

Going J8 with mom later to get more of my school things.
I need loads of rest.
Bye.

"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met."
So maybe, you're supposed to be there.
And till the day my memory fails, i'm not supposed to forget you.
And you can have my word, that i wont.

#33

2010-03-16T22:02:00.002+08:00

I agree, do you?
Each day, we're all putting on a pretence so as not to worry others.
Yet, the thing is, you end up pretending so much, that you can't even recognise yourself.
Sad, ain't it?

Awesome day out with huiting.
Stop 1: 313@somerset.
Stop 2: Ion orchard.
Stop 3: Esplanade.
:D
The long hours of walking got my toes pain ):
But, some photos made it worthwhile.
Some was really awesome to the max.
Bought my school stuffs from Muji.
Seriously love their things a lot :D
Wasted my money thou.
Gna claimclaimclaim. :B
Nothing much.
The guy from kikki.K told me he liked my necklace :D
I love it too :B
That's about it.

I.shall.learn.and.try.to.be.a.happy.happy.girl.

#32

2010-03-15T12:11:00.004+08:00

Shopping plan with mom cancelled.
She was having a real bad headache ):
Had a nicenice convo with daddy that go me high :B
But ended up getting scolded by mom ):
Shopping date with huiting tmr!!! <3
Hehehehehehe.
Camera, im not on my way yet.
Cause im having second thoughts.
Maybe im always like that.
But too bad :x

This is for you.
I know you'd read it. (I guess)
I dont like it that im not having school.
At least school keeps me busy and i dont have so much time to think about you.
Maybe once in awhile, i would stop my school work and write some craps in my foolscap pad for you.
But well, now the time's a bit tootoo much.
And the main problem is, when i think of you,
I end up getting sad.
And no, that's not what i want.
I know i cant possibly end up being happy in such a short time.
Unless i didnt exactly love you.
But well, i didnt know i love you so much too.
I didnt.
And i never though it'd be this hard.
Im still keeping every single text i had from you.
And i dont intend to delete them any time soon.
Maybe i just wanna keep them for memories sake.
Or maybe, i cant even bear with them.
And i want so much for you to be part of my life.
I cant say i cannot live without you.
Cause life goes on whether we like it or not.
But the fact remains that i badly want you here with me.
You were the one who then taught me how to stand up and not let the past bring me down.
You were the one who taught me to be strong.
You were the one who made me realise how it felt to be happy again.
And the one who brought so much joy to my life.
All of a sudden, you're gone.
And i cant adapt.
Not at all.
Maybe im such a bad girlf.
Maybe i dont deserve you at all.
Or maybe, this is how things were supposed to be just that we complicated them.
You've done nothing wrong.
Just that, you forgot to teach me how to stop, how to go.
I never regretted anything.
Just hoping you didnt mean so much.
Sometimes, when we hold on too tight, we're afraid that the other one would die in our hands.
And when it's too lose, we're hell afraid that it'd go.
So, what exactly are we supposed to do, to get the best of all.
If only there was something i could do, to get you back here.
If only, you were not like the wind that goes before i could even see.
If only you were something small, that i could keep with me forever.
Guess i'd remove this part soon.
And in the case that you dont get to read it,
Maybe it's really fate.

#31

2010-03-14T20:11:00.003+08:00

Im feeling much better already :D

Went to NUS open house.

One word, awesome.

It's a waste if you didnt go.

Took the chance to tell daddy how much i want to stay in a hostel rather than going home everyday :B

Then headed to parkwayparade.

Bought some stuffs, mummum-d, left.

So, now im home.

Saw something that kinda hurt me.

Maybe not hurt me.

Just that i felt hurt.

I saw a cat lying in pain on the road, coughing blood.

To whoever that irresponsible driver is.

I dont know why you did something like that.

But why cant you be more responsible and answer for your actions.

At the veryvery least, carry it up onto the pavement.

Rather than leaving it on the road and risk getting run over by other cars.

How could you run over it and leave just like that?

Wouldnt your conscience bug you?

Or are you telling the whole world that you dont have one.

So what if it's just a cat.

It's still a life.

And you should treat it like how you treat yourself!

I hope that you conscience will bug you, leaving you sleepless everynight.

Till the day the cat rests in peace, i hope, you will not have a good day.

I miss you.

But i dont know what to do.

Feeling helpless and loss.

Not knowing where to head.

It just hurts, a lot.

Someone, please tell me, that feelings will fade.

Tell me it well.

Show me it well.

Cause it just doesnt seem to go,

No matter how reluctant i am to let it stay.

You aint bringing me anymore happiness.

This time, i allow you to go.

Feelings, just go and dont come back again.

#30

2010-03-13T21:55:00.003+08:00

No pictures for today.
No quotes.
No, nothing, not anything.

Woke up and dad fetched me out for breakfast then to school at 6 plus.
Prepare and all till fund fiesta officially started.
Nothing much actually.
Darren ordered mac delivery for us cause we were really hungry and desperately finding stuffs to eat :B
Heh.
But i think many teachers are like damn pissed with what we did :x
Esp that karen dont know what :x
Got kinda reprimanded and all.
Still, enjoyed our meal :DD
Then, played poker with darren and co.
Left school at three plus,
Headed to hub to watch movie.
Caught the dumbdumb jack neo show ._.
I think it's one of the worst shows i've ever seen ._.
Seriously suck like hell.
I would only give it a 1/5 rating :/
But well, whatever.
Dad fetched me home from hub.
Since i was not feeling well,
I just bathed and sleeeeeeeeeeep :D
Feeling better.
But still..
):

And yes, my knee problem's back again ):
I thought it was alright already since i havent had it for so long.
But yeah, i just suddenly couldnt like stand straight on my right leg.
And i had to walk like so handicapped ):
But, it's now alright already.
Think it's really time to get to the doctor already.
Mdm yau's problem started small, from the knee too.
I dont wanna end up having difficulties moving about in the near future.
Yes, i should go check up.
(I hope i would go)

And yes, maybe it's really like what huiting said.
You did it on purpose.
Perhaps to piss me or what.
I dont know.
But, there's no need to.
Cause im trying hard to put them all aside for now.
It may be my loss.
Or rather, it already is my loss.
But i really dont have anymore time to spare.
Love aint right for me now, at this point in life.
I-AM-IMMATURE.
I should only have family and study on mind.
I should.
I shall start to hypnotise myself. ):
Hmpf.
I mustmustmust get in my vet course.
Or i really dont know what to take anymore ):
Im only interested in the life sciences / technological sciences in poly.
And it's all one digit or 12/13 ):
Oh, someone please.
Give me some IQ and take away all dumbness.
Get me a better brain and all.
I need full distinctions.
It's a need, really ):

And yes, i should buy loads of vitamins and all.
I should stop getting sick at this impt point.
Stay strong, mentally, physically.
And dont let anyone affect you.
Be it if they're worth or not.

Ohyes, and angeline's finally continuing her diary writing after stpping for two months :BB

#29

2010-03-12T19:49:00.002+08:00

The skies above me are grey . grey . still grey.

To make it worse, ismail had to be THIS sarcastic.

Please lur,

I AINT DOING ANYTHING EVIL OR WHAT.

I JUST MERELY CHOSE NOT TO ATTEND YOUR REMEDIAL.

SO FOR GODNESS SAKE, YOU AND YOU FRIEND CAN JUST EFFING SHUT YOUR MOUTHS UP.

GET THE FACT RIGHT,

I DONT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT HOW BADLY YOU THINK MY ATTIDTUDE IS.

NEITHER WILL I GIVE A DAMN ABOUT WHAT YOU AND YOUR FRIEND THINK OF ME :D

Hey you, just because you're my teacher,

It doesnt give you the right to hold control over my life.

Not at all.

Oh please, stop telling me students didnt get distinctions just because they didnt attend your remedial.

I bet 9/10 who attended your remedial, still got some B3 or what at the end of the day.

And, if you seriously think im a princess, so be it.

I still thank you.

So what if i'm my parent's princess.

Are you jealous or what.

Even my parents allow me not to attend your remedials.

Get this fact alright, even if you were to call them up,

They would still agree on allowing me to skip your remedial.

GET IT? TRY IT IF YOU DONT.

And you, friend.

What right do you have to question if my parents can opt me out of the remedial.

That's what ismail always say anyway,

"If you dont like it, ask your parents to write me a letter and opt you out"

I'm just acting according to her wish, u-n-d-e-r-s-t-a-n-d?

You teachers just refuse to listen to your students.

But if parents stand out,

Do you even dare to repeat what you said to me today before them?

I DARE YOU.

Stupid spoilers of the day.

#28

2010-03-11T20:15:00.002+08:00

It's going to be the holidays soooooon.
Awesome, aint it?
But seems so fast:/
Anyway, just want to declare to the whole world that i love my friends, seating partners and class. (Including some chers :B)
I love huiting hell alot.
She has always been there for me throughout nomatter what.
And it aint easy to find a friend like that!
But dont be jealous cause i've got one. :DD
I really wish that we both would be going to the same school after we graduate.
or i wouldnt know how to survive for the next 2/3 years.
I need someone like her to always be there to listen to all my nonsense.
I doubt i can find a friend like this again.
And i love her doubly hard.
Also, i love my current and ex seating partners :D
(Namely Derek & Irritant (As what mrs ong calls :B) - jaekyung)
They are always bring my joy and laughter.
And by their side, i seem to forget all the unhappiness.
They never failed to make me smile during school hours and i really love being their partners.
When im sad, i could actually tell him as well.
Cause he wouldnt exactly like spread and all.
Thinking back, we shared some secrets and never really hid anything.
We make fun of one another.
But we know it's just a joke.
And we all laugh together (:
And most importantly, they're always there to patiently explain to me each time that stupid brain of mine doesnt understand anything (:
And of course, i love my class!
Had fun gossiping with jj & co during assembly today :B
Thou it was abit loud :x
I realised, i super love crapping with huiting :D
Not to forget, mrs ong too!
We thought she was going to be some super strict teacher.
But her jokes and cute reactions never failed to bring us some joy and laughters even thou we're really stressed up.
Maybe im getting better.
Your words went in for once.
I was thinking through my whole secondary school life just now.
And i realise, every single memory means a lot to me.
And they took up a big part of my life.
That's all.
I think i gonna procrastinate again :/
Urgh.
Hope i'll do my homework by 9 (:

#27

2010-03-10T20:34:00.002+08:00

I realised i havent been paying attention in class.
I seem like i am.
Cause i've been keeping myself busy.
Yes, i should start listening and score! :B
Everything's alright,
except for the fact that i feel harrassed by ____ ___.
I really dont like to receive to many texts from someone i dont really like / not exactly keen to continue a conversation with.
And the worst of all is actually people who keep saying things like "Go out with boyf right" Or the like,
Hoping to dig some of your private stuffs out.
Get your freaking ass out man.
It just gets on my nerves, trying to explain to you the meaning of Single means single.
That's about it.
Beside's that,
Nothing much's exactly happening in my life.
Perhaps, it's also a type of blessing.
I should cheer up and stay positive.
I should, i must
And i aint gonna disappoint anyone!
But right now,
Guess im most worried about yau.
):
Shant elaborate much.
All that's happening is making me cry everyday.
I hate this fucked up life.
Gosh shit.
Holy mama.
Whatever scoldings you can think of.

#26

2010-03-09T17:35:00.004+08:00

Headache . Heartache . Everything and anything ):

I love my class.
They are the ones that are making me smile :D
Today, i was like telling them "Heyhey, yesterday i was at facebook the i saw _________________!"
Jiejing&Wenting " Omg! Who?! "
Me " I dont know. "
Huiting " Oh, yesterday i also saw ______________________!"
Jiejing/Wenting/Alyssa "Omg!!!! Wtf'"
Hahahas, the conversation was really nice :B
To protect identities, names shall not be mentioned.
Then had maths test.
Didnt know how to do some ):
Could you imagine, i'm like so going to fail three or more subjects in just term one!!
Like, what the efffff is happening ):
I wish i could just tear up the report cards when they return.
And i dreamt that i got c6 for my o level english.
HAHAHHAHA :x
Bio SPA was kinda epic fail :/
Discussed answers with classmates.
Thought i was the only stupid one to write that kind of answer :x
BUTBUT, KOREAN'S ANSWER IS LIKE, ALMOST EXACTLY THE SAME AS MINE!
And im really happy for that :D
After school, went opposite to 215 with mok.
Just to pass I some stuffs and left :D
Although the letter's abit fail, but yup, really did put in effort. :/
And yeah, mean everything i said :/
But obviously, i didnt write everything in lur.
Some things have to be kept within :BB
A/P was alright.
Played some games.
Fun:D
Well, the best thing right now,
I guess its that exams are all over for now :DD
The end . :x

To my dearest mdm yau, you got to get well soon.
Im so freaking worried about you.
And i want to see you in school!
I want you to get well.
We all miss you.
Stay strong and get well soon.
I'll always be there for you, like how you've always been there for me <3

It's a fact that i want you back.
But the fact also remains, that i dont know how to face you.
You're getting on so well without me.
And i should be happy for you.
I should. I should. I should!
Yes, angeline, you should stop bugging him like as if he's yours.
Cause he is not!
It's time for you to fucking get back to reality!

Lastly, i feel like cutting short hair.

But well, mixed feelings ):

Or maybe should just shave all :x

#25

2010-03-07T11:13:00.004+08:00

See that, at the end of the day, it still withers.

No matter how hard you try to bring it back alive,

It cant return to its original state.

It's just a natural process i guess?

Or maybe its just a matter of time.

A long lifespan, or a short one.

Maybe we have no control over it.

It also depends on the amount of determination and effort you put into caring for it.

Anyway,

Just wanna say, i want to go MIA! :BB

Heh, shall not use the computer after i shut off all the way till tuesday!

:DD

I predict that many bio students are now mugging hard for their SPA test.

I shall do so too, this afternoon :D

Shall put behind all the unhappiness and live on well.

I'll show you all, i can survive on my own. :D

Two time's enough to cost me my life.

A four letter word, with loads of meaning within.

I aint going to let that word touch or hurt me again :D

The earth does not stop revolving because i'm sad.

Things go on as usual.

Tears wont be the reason to hold me back.

I gonna move ahead with a bigbig smile.

(I know, sometimes, it's really easy to say.)

-I'll try i guess.

To end it, i shall be happy like the photo below :B

#24

2010-03-06T23:24:00.003+08:00

I've got a lot to say.
But since its so late, shall just type out abit.
Met up with CC for study date.
Started off well.
But ended up giving up.
I hate AMATHS! ):
Seems like i wanna drop all the subjects :/
Went for a movie after we met up with huiting.
(Dear John)
I still find it pretty touching leh.
Not sure why either :x
Home-d.
Waned to skip dinner.
But was hungry in the end :B
Mom whipped up some dishes for me.
You're awesome, mom <3
That's about it.

Seriously, you got me thinking.
I doubt you need me anymore.
And i've no idea what's the next step.
You claimed you'd keep your promises.
Yet, you broke me like nobody's business.
But yeah, this aint to make you guilty.
I dont blame you.
Guess it's really my fault.
Gnight :/

#23

2010-03-05T21:09:00.003+08:00

The start of 2010 aint fruitful ):
Term one's coming to an end.
And im more than a step closer to o.
Seriously, i wish to tell the school,
"Hey, opt me out, i'll take it next year"
Im just not ready for it luh.
Right now, im so unwilling to give up play and all to study.
Yes, i cant make that sacrification.
I dont like the fact that everyone around me is like mugging so hard yet im still so relaxed.
:/
I know i aint taking my studies seriously.
But well, it's really a chore to me.
I havent been doing well for the whole of term one.
If you even try and take a look at my common test results,
I swear, you'd want to jump down the buiding if you're my teacher :/
I kow i havent been working hard.
But, it's really sickening that each day before your sleep,
You recall the number of tests lining up for you day after day.
I ait even confident of passing my o levels right now!
And the course im interested is like some single digit scores.
How am i ever going to squeeze among the many thousands of students and get the course i want.
Perhaps, hard work pays off.
But not yet i guess.
I will study in may.
I hope i will. :D

Hey, Im sorry if im the one that's like always making you sad.
:/
It gets harder each time ):

#22

2010-03-02T22:10:00.002+08:00

TODAY, I'M HAPPY :D
Mainly, cause nothing makes me sad :B
Except for the coupons thing.
Ok, not sad but irritated and pissed :/
I just dont like it when im forced to do something lur :x
Hate it when all the school things about is cash.
Stop forcing people to fcuking donate to your school when we dont get anything.
Sec one, we used brown papers -.-
I've never seen another school use that man.
Sec 2 to sec 4 - use those types of lousy labs.
- computers spoilt, slow.
- gave us oxidised chemicals.
Hey you, are we that pathetic? -.-
Urgh, forget it.
It's my last year.
I was proud of aitong.
Proud to be an aitong-ian.
But never once proud of amkss.
Much less, proud to be an amksiannnnnnn :/

Anyway, im here to tell the whole world that i'm happy,
cause i found three classmates that wanna take the same course as me.
Thou it gonna be hard, we know we'll all work hard right (:
Secondly, i passed my hmtl paper :D
But i missed my one mark to an a2 ):
And yes, a maths is killing me real fast ):

#21

2010-02-28T13:38:00.003+08:00

We once said forever.
But right now, everything's in a whirl.
The words linger.
The memories stay.
I, too wish there was such a pill to get evrything out.
Right now inside, all your words come to me as lies.
And deep inside, we're saying, never again.
I no longer know what to say.
You threw everything away.
Then you wanted them back.
When you go them back, You threw them even further.
And you're saying, you didnt mean to.
Yes, i believe you didnt mean to.
But hey, no matter how nicely you fixed something you broke,
The cracks remain.
Perhaps, i'm the one that changed.
I believe it was my fault.
I wanted to change.
But you yourself threw that chance that belonged to both of us.
I wont say you're selfish.
I will say, it's your choice.
Shant say anymore.
Hey peepo, dont worry,
Im fine. (:

Lastly, kudos to 4/3 for the wonderful drama performance :DD
We may not be the best,
But like what jj said, we already feel like winners :DD

EDITED/
Phew.
I spent one hour to get this freaking skin done.
Now im dead beat.
Gonna sleep for a long long while.
Im not studying for geog :D
Cause its a fact that whether or not i study,
Ismail's still going to fail me ):
Screw her ass upside down :x
(Pardon me for the language)
Just cant stand her stupid excuses.
Im off to bed (:
Goodnights, all.

# 19

2010-02-16T12:54:00.002+08:00

It's the third day of cny already.
Pretty fast eh ):
School's on tmr.
Aint exactly looking forward thou.
Would rather spend more time with my cousins i guess :BB
But friend's are greattttt too :DD
New year's eve was alright.
Reunion was awesome.
First day of cny was pretty busy.
Rushed from place to place.
And everyone was just busy saying " happy chinese new year ".
Left home earlier than usual.
'cos it was like really humid at cousin's house.
Second day of cny was fun!
Gathered together in the afternoon.
Played.
And meet up for a midnight movie at like two :DD
I swear the cinema's coldcoldcold.
But my cousin survived without jacket.
And apparently, his body was still warm after the show ended.
Strong ehhhhh.
I guess everyone else was already dying of cold.
That's about it.
Im sooooo looking forward to my camera!
I love the gold one.
And the best thing that ever happened was that my mom said she'd top up the balance for me!
Havent exactly decided on the model :BB

& well guys,
Hope you guys loved my valentine's gift.
It was realy hard you know.
It aint easy to like find something amongst this whole puddle of similar things.
(Ok, if you understand :x)
And the lollipop making session sucked like hell ):
My finger tips were like really pain after i finished making it.
Could you imagine having some wire poking you? :/
But well, my cousin's said it was pretty pretty (kinda nice). :B
So yeah, felt that it was like worthed it ((:

#18

2010-02-03T18:52:00.002+08:00

Everyone's so obsessed with twitter eh.
I shall start one sooon.
Or rather, i'll create an account later :D
That is, if i figure how to :x
Hahahhas.
The whole week was pretty much packed with tests ):
But well, it should be alright.
Or rather, i hoped it was alright.
A maths should be the first and last test i fail this year ><
Mrs ong was nice during maths remedial :D
When she said, "who is eating wang wang in my class" ,
I was thinking who.
Then i realised she's talking about the wang zai sweet on my table :B
Had two hours of maths but learnt abit.
I think huiting's cher is really nice.
That's about it.
Life's like totally filled with books, exams, remedials.
Ohwell, achievers' ):
During p.e, was chatting with mok and huiting.
We were saying that we didnt understand why people have to emphasize on certain things.
But well, maybe we too did that before just that we forgot.
So well.
Shopping plans up.
Many things to buy,
Not that much $$ :B
bye.

#17

2010-01-31T10:20:00.003+08:00

I'm back, just to tell the whole world that,

I want...

:D
Tell me which colour is nicer ^^
And well, i've got geog test tmr.
Study? Or not to study? :x

#16

2010-01-23T16:10:00.002+08:00

School's a bore.
And maths kill.
If you put them together, you might as well die.
But well, whatever.
I have different things to say to different people.
But no, not right here.
Wait till i get some better pieces of paper and write them there.
Getting lazier nowadays :/
I'll buck up sooon. (I hope i'd)
:D
Updated! :x

#15

2010-01-17T20:53:00.002+08:00

Had dental and tuition yesterday.
Was rushing here and there.
Busy - the one word to describe.
The dentist asked me to choose colour.
Then i was like "white".
Then she said "going new year already leh"
Then i just " oh, ok, red lo. "
Now, its freaking hot! :BB
Now, my teeth's hurting like hell.
I dont know what the dentist did,
But it hurts.
(Be happy for huiting! She's removing those fences(jaekyung!) soon!) :DD
Tuition helped alot.
I seriously love my brother's tutor.
Great recommendation! ^^
But, the homework's piling like nobody's business ):
Ok well.
Nothing much.
I need huiting for shopping sooooon! (:
Wait till i get some cash from the bao guan! :DD

#14

2010-01-14T21:11:00.002+08:00

Back to blogging :D
Have been missing school herer and there for many days already ):
I really didnt want to.
Its just that those virus are attacking me.
Its been a week already luh. :/
Eitherway, i seem to have alot on mind.
So much to say,
So much things left undone.
But if you want me to list out everything, i cant.
Switching this blog to a private one soon.
I can post more that way :x
So well.
That's it.
Hope the career conference will be awesome tmr.
And all the best to those taking part in south zone! :DD
Somethings should be left unsaid.

#13

2010-01-10T21:46:00.002+08:00

Posts about the trip shall wait.
I dont have enough time for that.
And yeah, my hearts still not with school.
At the end of the day, i would stil text huiting and derek to ask for homeworks :B
Well, at least i still bother to try and understand and do ._.
But, i aint going to make it far like that.
Results gna be out tmr.
Worried like some shitass.
Can imagine myself getting some B4 and crying like some pathetic soul right inside of the hall ><
Urgh. Life shouldnt have been like that.
It should have been upmost carefree.
And yeah, feeding on medicines for the past many many days.
I swear, the doctors need to give me a heavier doze for sorethraot.
Ohplease, i still cant recover ._.
And im having cough and phlegm.
And he refuses to let my dad buy medicine for me, insisting i see him
Simply cos of some asthmatic records.
Well, if im dying of cought.
Would i still have the strangth to go to you? :/
Uhhhhh, whatever ;x
I still think mrs ong is a damn nice-y teacher :D
And mr alex rocks at maths too :DD
Updates another day :x

#12

2010-01-06T16:46:00.003+08:00

Im finally back.
I miss singapore alotlot.
But i wouldnt really mind spending another few more days there.
Cos i've been shopping day in day out.
Perhaps not so much to buy,
But it's really awesome.
Photos gna be the one speaking.
But wait till i reach Linhuiting's house and upload them up.
I aint gna post so much cos im going to huiting's house soooooon! (:
And i tell you, i'm dead beat.
I've been sleeping at like two / three am all night and wake up oh so early in the morning.
I desperately need sleep to get those damned pimples out of my life.
And i slept at 4 last night just to pack my own luggage.
It's hell tiring.
And there's school tmr.
Grrrrrr.

Well, she's gone.
Received a call at jakarta, saying she has passed away.
but aint attending the wake.
I cant find time.
sorry :/
And i realise,
Till today,
i.still.couldnt.accept.life.and.death.
Aint going to imagine a day when everyone goes.
Cos you know it gonna hurt hell loads.
But well, part and parcel of life.
Someday, i'll learn how. :D

&& Dont ever make someone a priority in your life,
If you're just an option in theirs.

#11

2009-12-28T13:42:00.004+08:00

Amaths re-exam's a diediedie thing.
I didnt even study luh ._.
But well, i still went to take the paper.
It just gna show you guys that i aint good at maths.
Not anymore.
BBQ later.
I hope we have enough cash.
Really short of cash one luh - class fund.
And well yeah, staying over at mrs lai's house.
And im really dead beat.
But im going to hang on.
Yeah, going to Pronounce my phone dead sooon.
Currently using brother's phone.
I hate it.
I dont like touch screen phones.
No. thou fun, hard to type ._.
Switching here and there ;D
Update tmr or when im back next week :D
And i miss mdm ya loads.
Feel like talking to her hell alot.
And well, im just a passer in your life.
Dont let me affect you.
Cos i aint the least worth it.
Sometimes, we cant hold on too tight.
Otherwise, there'll be this opposing force, pushing out way harder.
Im just a typical girl, like anyone of you.
I belong to myself, i live in my world.
And right now, i aint letting anyone in.
perhaps, im just too young and immature,
for anything this complicated.
Im sorry.
there's lots of more interesting and important stuffs for you right now.

#10

2009-12-27T13:10:00.002+08:00

Dad woke me up early in the morning ._.
Joined him and mommy for breakfast :D (I know im a bigbig light bulb :)
Ate something light cos of the bad sorethroat im having ):
Much better already :D
Going jurong point to collect my shoes later.
Decided not to send my phone for repair just yet.
Everthing can wait, till im back from my trip.
Flying in 3 days :D
Back on 6th!!!! (Skip schooooool :x)
But seriously, i miss school.
I miss my friends.
I miss my partner.
I miss the jokes.
I miss the laughter.
And i miss all the time we spent together :DD
Okk.
There's nothing much to update.
Cos im busy packing my clothes! :)
I'll be back here.

#9

2009-12-26T23:41:00.002+08:00

I know its the second post for today ._.
But well, just now was about yesterday.
This is about today :D
Went out with girlfriend (:
Met up at our usual place and trained to dhoby ghaut (p/s)
Went to get the things we need :D
Huiting bought some chains and stuufs and intends to diy a bracelet :D
I just bought the lock i need.
Then went to simply toys.
Seriously think im like damn stupid.
I asked the person whether transformers toys can transform anot.
Then he was like, its transformers, of course can la ._.
Helped my cousin to buy the two guy/the twins or whatever that's always beside bumblebee :D
Got the last pair. (Phew.. :>)
Then went to heeren.
Wanted to go HMV.
Then realised that it has actually moved to 313@somerset :
Walked around then went to 313@somerset
Bought the headset i wanted at HMV.
Then saw a pair of flats at mitju.
But apparently, there's no size D:
And the place where i've reserved my size is like jurong point ._.
Daddy please ^^
Trained home.
At amk mrt station,
you can like her some very loud noises.
I thought there was like some event then someone was talking with a mic.
Then huiting told me its actually an uncle shouting.
Couldnt really make out what he was shouting until at the escalator.
He was standing behind me & huiting then shouting "knnbccb" :/
Scare us luh.
Damn loud please.
Then here i am.

Im like so super duper sad know.
Really pissed off with my phone.
Fine for a moment, then spoil again.
Luckily it was alright when i received my overseas phone call.
Seriously sad luh.
Cant even talk on the phone now.
Gna send it for repair tmr ):
Seriously, i think i wna survive without a phone for the next few days.
I need to lead a peaceful life :x
Im tired.

#8

2009-12-26T13:31:00.003+08:00

Ohwell, my phone's spoilt.
I dont want a new phone thou.
Still love my phone :D
But i cant hear a shit during phone calls.
And i know i can send it for repair.
But once repaired, more problems will arise :/
Urgh.please man, get well soon, my darling phone :

Christmas over, boxing day on :B
It'd be a long post on christmas.
Summarise it as much as possible :x
Met up with A/P first.
Watched AVATAR (alright. just that im really sleepy)
& The indian small boy seated beside me's a'lil eccentric :x
Movie ended at 8.
Went to Bishan for our clique BBQ :D
Stayed till 12 :/
Had loads of fun ;D
Thanks loads to Huiting's dad for fetching :D
Or we'll have to take midnight cab ._.
Heh. Photos up on facebook.
View up if you're free.
Only 4 below :x

Thanks A/P for everything :D
Love the tattybears loads :D
Thanks huiting for the chain.
I hope you guys love the card :D
Miss you guys lots.
We'll meet up again when im back (L)
Oh, the christmas hat is pretty! ((:

#7

2009-12-24T16:28:00.002+08:00

I guess, it didnt make me really oh-so-pissed.
Just rather, i dont understand your actions.
And i cant find a reason.
Well, guess its not me being paranoid.
But just its a fact.
Perhaps, your friend just said the wrong thing in public? (Like wow ;D)

Its nice to sleep late today,
Cos its raining in the morning :D
But now, its like so hothothot.
Oh yes, i've made up my mind to stay at home and lead a 'eat-sleep-watch' lifestyle.
:B
Once in awhile, its still nice i guess? :x
Oh, and i miss my girlfriend loads :D
We havent seen each other since last wednesday ):
But, its going to be christmas!
And we gna meet at our BBQ :D
Yongguang's coooooool, he went to lai's house for dinner.
Hahahha.
And well, guang, are you sososososo shocked that i know about your lil secret? ;D
Dont shyshy.
Hahahha.
If chrismas wishes would come true,
I'd wish that all my family and friends gonna be happy all day long :D
I'm sick of being sad! (:
So now, Im back to my oldoldold self.
The happyhappy angeline.
One who doesnt know how it feels like,
To hurt & really feel your heart sink right down to the bottom.
To cry like nobody's business in the toilet/alone.
To read somethings over and over again just to realise that it hurts more than ever.
(but well, the fact lies within myself that, i cant be that happy again. Never again)
But still, i gna try and be Happy, like how i used to be)
Cause i ever told myself,
I aint going to let those days start all over again :D
No high hopes, and i aint gna fall and hurt ((:
Uh, im so looking forward to tmr (:
Activities lined up.
And oh guys, i still cant believed that that loser told nerrad(opp :x) that he thinks i like him.
Oh god, spoilt my reputation.
Hahahha.
If i told my brother that,
He's sure gna say that he's a damned fcuking loser :D
Way to go man , Alvin.
You're so going to be my super loved brother ever :D
And im sure, you'll pass this hurdle.
You gotta work hard.
Dont make me lose face kay ;D
(I wna tell the whole world that i've got a smart brother that loves me :D)
okkkk, that's all.
Updates tmr (:

If only someone could bring me back in time,
to somewhere with only laughters.

#6

2009-12-23T18:38:00.000+08:00

A prank indeed.
And you and your friends have commented enough on that prank.
Aint it enough.
Your friend's not even fit to comment on me.
It's not like as if i didnt know.
But well, i cant be bothered by her.
She's just being a loser by saying i choose friends.
Its not like she dont.
She's nice, my foot.
If she's nice, she wouldnt even give those comments.
Oh please.
And i didnt even dispise you as my friend.
But well, at least mine was interesting.
Yours just made you look like a ~~fucking~~ loser.
So what if i was wrong then when i pranked you.
At least i wasnt the only one.
Cos we pranked as a group. ( I BET YOU NEVER KNEW THIS) :D
I meant what i said.
Or i wouldnt even have asked you out for the job hunt.
I wouldnt even have sent you a birthday text.
And we wouldnt even have given you the cake.
And i wouldnt even think of you at times.
It was you who didnt appreciate.
You didnt!

ohwell.
Today's a coldcold day.
It is :/
Spent loads of time sleeping since ~~i cant go out~~. (Chose not to)
Omg, im so looking forward to 3/3`09's BBQ.
It's so going to be funfunfun (:
Hehehehehehehe.
Finally sent out all the messages today :D
Do comfirm with me by today lahhhhhhh! :B
And i hope that there's loads of sales this saturday.
And yes, i should really stop spending money.
At the start of the month, i had 300$.
Now, Im left with 50$.
And the thing is, i dont know where i spent my money ):
Urgh, forget it.
&& AdultPampers, i seriously thing that the open apology plan is soooooo cool :B
But also, embarrassing :x

#5

2009-12-22T22:16:00.001+08:00

24`08 CLASS OUTING :D
It's fun, seriously.
Met up with farzana & shuhui first then walked to the mrt station together (:
Met Jacq, PeiHua, Sheri, Shiauyin, Sebas, Dennis, Jenson, Fanghong, WeiLih, Shawn first.
Took mrt to Bedok, bused and walked abit to east coast.
Splitted up.
Me, Shuhui & Farzana headed to Mac while the rest went for cyling.
Siqi, Huimin, Miss Chan, JunHao, Michael came soon.
Took photo as miss chan had to go for christmas shopping :B
And the rest carried on cycling,
While me and Shuhui walked around, dating. (We dont know how to cycle ._.)
Chatted alotlotlotlot :D
On the way, met 23`08 peeps.
Guess they're having a BBQ (They should be still there (;)
How coincidental.
It's your loss if you didnt go :p
Initially when we saw Devin,
We thought he was going out with his primary school friends :B
At 6 plus, we headed back to Amk for dinner.
Long journey man (Bus 13)
Decided to eat at PizzaHut :D
YongHan, Casper & Mok came over to join us (:
Couldnt finish mine :x
But im full :D
Chatted hell loads.
Went home after dinner :D

And yesyesyes, Huiting's backkkkkkk! (:
Awesome, aint it? :D

#4

2009-12-21T22:17:00.000+08:00

Day out with Brenda! :D

Pretty awesome? - I guess not :B

'Cos we had nothing to do :B

HAHAHAHHA

If you want more details,

Brenda's blog please :x

I dont really like tweeny weeeeeeny details like some :xx

But well, chee cheng called up when she needs me.

HAHAHHA.

I was nice enough to accompany her for dinner :D

Awesome friend?

And, i want a tatty bear!

Whoever gets it for me,

I'll marry you :B (Joking :/)

But i really love it luh ):

Eitherway, talking to hwa jie online now (:

He's touched that i remember him.

heh (:

And, mr ong, how can you give us up for your promotion????

HOW COULD YOU?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

And well,

sometimes, i really dont know how to put it to you.

But well,

Your attitude's killing me :/

#3

2009-12-20T20:18:00.000+08:00

Seems like the whole family is down - sick )):
But well, things go on.
And im so looking forward to our family trip (:
COUNTING DOWN 10 DAYS :D
And yesyes ivan, seems like many's interested to know who your girlfriend is :x
damnit, i seem to be having serious stm.
I totally forgot what i wanted to post.
Ohwell, breda and i are having a hard time deciding on where to go tmr.
Do text me tmr if you"ve got any suggestions (:
The damned pimples are appearing :/
I've got big ones here and there.
No, i seriously dont want to be like her/him/them :x
And, thanks loads to ADULT PAMPERS for calling when i couldnt sleep last night :B

#2

2009-12-19T12:28:00.001+08:00

I realised that the more i read your blog,
The more i feel you're a bitch.
Yes, i know that word is strong.
But well, it fits you (:
How cool aint it.
Don't you realise you've got no real friends.
So much so that you actually got to suck up to others.
Well you think you've got some really close friends there for you.
But, if they can betray others, comment on others,
I bet they'll do the same to you one day.
And right from that day when you told such a stupid and useless lie,
And showed me that effed-up cum act cute face,
I swear you gonna remain as a liar in my heart.
Oh, and if brenda didnt tell me that my blog url's kinda linked to your somewhat nonsensical thing,
i wouldnt have felt so insulted.
And if she had told me earlier,
I definitely wouldnt have used it.
But well, do get this clear.
I didnt even know you had a name or what shit you call it, similar to my url.
I didnt and i didnt.
So yeah, just to let you know,
Im not a copycat :D
And if i were one,
I would rather copy from some retarted(no offence) ones,
than you :DDDDD
to think, i truly wanted to be your friend again.
Okkk, enough of that.
I've got dental today!
But its like raining and i just simply dont wish to get my foot out of my house.
well, whatever.
Will edit later (:
Andand, Mr wee, do cheer up eh.
Dont think so much.
Everything has got to go on.
And you've got to hang on, stronger than ever.

#1

2009-12-18T17:17:00.001+08:00

Heh, Im back to blogging.
No particular reasons. ( Don't waste your brain juices thinking )
Ain't telling much about this link, except those usual close ones :D
It's been a long while since i blogged, that i had a really hard time, trying to get my skin done :/
Gosh shit ass.
Shall just post about wednesday to keep this blog what you call - alive.
Was out with Huiting, Darren and Cheecheng.
But Darren left for a movie first.
Darren, see, im right about the guess of shirt colour! :B
That's why im your shifu! :D
Cheecheng left soon after for some medical appointment?
And im left to date huiting alone .
HAHAHHA, sounds wrong.
(But who really cares):/
Didnt really but much cos im really saving :x
Just bought a Mango top and 3 accessories from m)phosis.
I seriously love m)phosis alot please ._.
Okkkkk, And im going to buy a GAP shirt sometime soon.
Really love it.
But this season's one aint nice.
And well, im like sooooooo looking forward to going overseas.
Not cos i'll be able to miss school.
But, it's going to be fun! (:
And yes, i've been thinking.
I want to be the strongest girl, you guys have ever known :B
oh, and, many events coming up soon!

2212 - 2/4 class outing?
2312 - picnic!
2512 - clique's christmas
celebration.
2612 - shopping! ( Im so going to ask huiting out :D)
2812
- 3/3 BBQ!
2812 to 2912 - stay over at Mrs Lai's place!(cool eh)
3012 -
Overseas! (:

Tht's all. Im freaking damn tired :/